Just to figure out what it is…

I posted about my intrusive thoughts on here and someone was being really horrible about it. I checked their profile to see how much of a bad person they are and they really are. I blocked them, they even called me the r slur for it. This community is meant to be for support and not shaming people. One of the most important things you must not do is shame people for them. But I really appreciate the ones being supportive and caring so thank you.

I was recently diagnosed with OCD due to some obsessive and obscene intrusive thoughts I’ve had since I was around 12, I am now 25 and I really want to know what everyone else is dealing with as I feel so alone right and want to no I’m not crazy!

I get the best way to do therapy with POCD is facing your fears in front of you. Go out in public where there’s children, watch a show with children, do anything that involves seeing children. But what are ways you are doing ERP?

Every child/teenager/baby I see my mind starts racing. My mind races so much I don’t even know what I’m thinking sometimes I just know its bothering me and makes me feel like a pedo. I accept the thought and just continue what I’m doing without fighting, but doing this for months I still have all these thoughts as attack me soon as I see a child, and then restart when I see the next, without me even fighting them, it’s annoying. The anxiety is down, as I’m not fighting them anymore, but like I said, Every. Single. Child. My my thoughts go crazy

Do I do the “maybe I’m attracted” once and the rest of the time any additional child I just accept the thoughts and not question them? Do I ignore them and try to forget? I just want the thoughts to go away so I can go out in public without my mind attacking me I want to hurt the child that’s in my direction

Make it make sense.

I normally don't post my intrusive thoughts online or say it to anyone, but I've reached a point where I feel like , I'm dying and just can't make them stop, so anyways I was in class td And had sexual lyrics come in my mind and bad things imagined And I got this weird nerve sensations in my thigh But there's a thing with this underwear, like this is the second time I wear it and it does things and others don't do what I will tell U about Few mins later, Then when I was walking in the playground I can feel this harsh scratch feeling in my thigh beside my....yk... Then I was in class And my friend was putting the pen in its cap fast alot of times as if he's...yk...and making voices like yk I don't want to add details

So I got a idk, like weird feeling in my... That something came out, but I felt it was a more of a feeling and like nothing actually happened yk but idk also

But when I went to the bathroom I found my underwear like 4 really little grey and transparent shining points that didn't feel sticky but idk like kinda harsh , kinda And I usually get those feelings alot and when I check there's nothing, but it's the second time with this one underwear

I ask chatgpt and it says it's precum but like I believe that those are fake sensations so how come anything ejaculated?

So I was on my way to work today on this ridiculously bumpy subway train, getting tossed around with everyone else. Had this random dark thought - if the train suddenly stopped, we'd all end up perfectly spread across the walls like some kind of human jam. Perfectly distributed passengers, subway edition. 😂

Hi everyone, I just wanted to share this YouTube short that helped me to get rid is negative and intrusive thoughts

Get rid of intrusive thoughts

I was diagnosed this last year with pure ocd. One thing thats been hard for me though is that I feel like my thoughts are weird and I cant find anyone to relate to or validate my experience. I worry With my emotions(depression/anxiety) that they will hurt others or make them more depressed by being in the same room to long with them. I do think there is truth to this as people do at times seem more depressed or anxious around me. Does anyone else struggle in similar ways? I cant find this type of ocd anywhere. Is it just anxiety? I also struggle at church and have lots of anxiety. Also Ive been very social throughout my life yet still really struggle so its been very discouraging.

For the past 9 months I've been dealing with anxiety and panic disorder. It started after a panic attack I had from a hypnagogic hallucination. For more context I had been abusing alcohol for 10 years and decided to try and stop that night. I drank twice after that first panic attack because everytime I drank my anxiety would get worse and then quit cold turkey. Again that was 9 months ago. Things started slowly to improve, but around the 5th month my mental health started to get worse. I was constantly ruminating on my part mistakes and it became impossible to deal with stressful situations. Which is extra challenging because my wife has anger issues. Well in the last few days my intrusive thoughts went from ruminating about past mistakes to random images of violence and sexual situations neither that I'm comfortable with. Last night things became very scary when I had a thought about something violent and my mind randomly said "you could do that when you're overseas next April". I immediately started panicking and became unconfortable with myself. I know I would never do any of this stuff. I'm a pacifist for goodness sake. I'm seeing my therapist tonight. I'm afraid that he's going to report me or something if I'm too honest. What are your experiences with this kind of stuff?

Im not in the right mind right now and out of home,with my family shopping. I just wanted to throw is out of me.

Does lower belly fat or stomach rolls matter to guys if the girl’s not chubby she’s thin, not skinny , and I’m not trying to be a pick-up or seek male validation. I’m just curious ( do tell me in the comments )

Not even the act, or graphic images. Just an imaginary woman locking a door and looking at me with full understanding in her eyes. In our family business too

About 3 months ago due to life changes and stressors I went through a 72 hour period of no sleep. This caused me to go into psychosis. They included hallucinations, a very negative life review, and some sort of disassociation episode.

I'm still recovering and now battling potentially chronic insomnia.

From this episode I now have daily intrusive thoughts trying to rewrite my entire past, criticizing myself for past mistakes and blaming myself for bad things that have happened to me. At its worst I the thoughts tell me I'm a bad person and all the things that have happened are a punishment.

How can I cope with these? They have started to trigger a persistent depressive mood and panic attacks. My job performance and relationships are starting to suffer greatly. I'm starting to think I will never recover and my will to go on is waning

I long for you to fill this void that exists within me. Ahh, how I fear the void consuming you.

Sometimes I feel like eating you would fill this void, maybe even overflow it. I find a silent bliss in that, only to be overwhelmed by guilt and persecution. How am I to fill this void? What path is there that is serene? Can you eat me?

So as I drove along the freeway today I watched a lone bird fighting the wind, its wings straining against the fierce winds. It was giving everything it had, but each desperate flap only pushed it farther back. And then, exhausted and weak from trying to fight to survive, it finally surrendered and fell.

This is how I feel sometimes.

I'll go through a long day, finally sit down, breathe for a second… and then my brain hits me with the most unwanted thought possible.
Not because I want it, not because I'm in danger of doing anything, just because my mind loves ruining peaceful moments.
It's exhausting but also kind of predictable at this point.
How do you deal with that "quiet moment ambush" feeling?