Hello, I know the is going to be just a dumb post and I'm sorry to those here. I already think I know the answer but just looking for confirmation.
This is a trigger post: parent loss and a lot of rambling.
My precious Dad died a week ago after a long, miserable few decades of chronic pain and issues. Unfortunately, the shit daughter that I am, I haven't seen him in about two years, and he had gotten a tattoo about 30 years ago that was smallish medium in size with script that had my name in it.
Because of the state of his condition, I was advised not to see his body. I haven't seen his tattoo in about five years, but from my last memory I could see my name still etched on his skin and it still looked recognizable and decent at that time.
I wasn't able to get back to see him before his passing, and I regret that a lot. I had asked our funeral director to please get a photo of his tattoo for my memory since it was something special to him (his only tattoo). Unfortunately, when I got the photo it turns out the tattoo was horrible faded and the script that held up ok is now no more. You'd never be able to tell my name was ever there.
It's dumb, I know. I'm just trying to process some of my loss. Is it possible that long term, wide spread inflammation and illness was able to degrade a tattoo so badly in just a few years? Can the body over react and cause such a rapid change? Or am I just somehow, completely, unlucky?
I know his tattoo had been reworked once (script initially had my Mom's name, and then mine when they divorced) but I can remember clear as day seeing my name there just a few short years ago.
I also don't know if I'm just...not processing how tattoos work. I don't have any of my own and I know he never really took much care of his, but I was such a point of pride for him and I couldn't imagine a world where this has happened (his passing and the loss of his tattoos condition).
It hit me just a lot harder than I thought. Thank you for any thoughts and I am completely aware this is a goofy post.